Plzz help me fast b4 i go into severe depression..?

i had wit my bf, on 6th may.He used a condom and other than slimy secretion,he didnt and the condom didnt break either.it was the 5th day of my menses when the bleeding had stopped.inspite of me taking precautions and having in the safe period,i have started getting pregnancy symptoms lyk constipation,gas,painful and hard .But cannot take any test till mid june due to lack of access to thm. Can i be pregnant? i am **** scared of operations. how painful is an abortion and hw lng does it take? hw lng does one take to recover frm it?if i get an abortion done in june 27th or so,will it be too late and hw serious will the operation be then? i have to abort the child if am pregnant due to serious other consequences if i cont. to keep the kid. i am **** scared and do not wanna actually commit this crime..but if i am preg. i will have to commit it. i am in depression...plz help me out fast plzz...